So I was wondering how you let your stress out? what's your preferred way to release anger? I found that I was getting stressed by the pressure put on me by my parents and soon after I would start taking my stress out on my little brother and soon felt guilty for being mean. I remember going outside and playing soccer with my little brother who was about 6 or 7 at that time and I would make him the goalie.. well I made it my goal to hit him as he dodged the ball, i would particularly aim for his face. I would of course laughed my butt off at the sight of his pain. I continued with other things like making sure he knew I was in control when we were younger. I would tackle him to the ground and sit on him as he struggled to get me off. I also thought that was funny and found that I felt better after creating pain and fear in him. As I got older I realize how my actions have affected him, he started to have black outs of rage towards me, turn all red and come at me with his fist. I was still taller and stronger so I would hold him back and wait for him to calm down. I have learned that I should voice how I feel not physically show someone to make myself feel better. But I always get those little thoughts about bashing someone over the head with a frying pan or think of insults I could say to them. But I don't cause I've seen how its effect people in their lives.
Talking to someone like a close friend, parents, or a therapist if you feel more comfortable telling a stranger all your secrets or thoughts may help. Another way in expressing yourself and releasing stress is art, pick up drawing, painting, ect. You can start sports or working out on a regular basis to blow off some steam.
Your poor brother. Glad u figured out a better way to take out ur stress and anger.
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